Pel keeps talking, but Beleth can barely hear them. Her world is still spinning, just at the notion that Alistair--he's gone around, telling over people. How many other people? How many people would Pel share it with? How long before all of Skyhold was laughing at her, calling her a hypocrite--
"Of course I judged myself," She spits out the words distastefully, expression resentful as she turns back to Pel. "I spent months wrestling with whether or not I should even try telling him. I thought--maybe I'm the one that's wrong, maybe I should just go for it, like everyone else did. And it blew up in my face." She looks away again, hands curling into fists. "Stupid to even think--But it was for the best. It made me have to reevaluate...everything. The choices I was making, the advice I was taking, the path I was following. And I realized just how far I had strayed from my goals."
She takes a deep breath, steeling herself and straightening her back. "So I don't need anyone's pity. Yes, I made a mistake--a stupid, hypocritical mistake--but suffice to say, I learned my lesson. I'm stronger now."
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"Of course I judged myself," She spits out the words distastefully, expression resentful as she turns back to Pel. "I spent months wrestling with whether or not I should even try telling him. I thought--maybe I'm the one that's wrong, maybe I should just go for it, like everyone else did. And it blew up in my face." She looks away again, hands curling into fists. "Stupid to even think--But it was for the best. It made me have to reevaluate...everything. The choices I was making, the advice I was taking, the path I was following. And I realized just how far I had strayed from my goals."
She takes a deep breath, steeling herself and straightening her back. "So I don't need anyone's pity. Yes, I made a mistake--a stupid, hypocritical mistake--but suffice to say, I learned my lesson. I'm stronger now."